Music: Vince Gill - One More Last Chance (its come up in conversation 3 times in the past few hours)
Thing: Twin Philosophy Professors (why are they all bald?)
Color: Righteous Rose! It's actually not a pink day, it's a mauve day.

Today's post has two parts A) the emotional rant with deep insight into my soul
B) the frivolous wit you've come to expect.


A)
I don't know what happened last night but I could not be in O'Connor for another minute or I would have hurt someone. I call it the bitchy virus. I'm sorry I don't burden you with my moods because I have a like, total crisis and am under a TON of stress because of ------blank--------. You know what? I have stress too! I just don't make you hear about it. Don't look at me like I don't go out, I've been on an emotional roller coaster the past week and a half and have been trying to just keep to myself and have support from my friends, who are not here but know me best. I'm not going to be Pam, or what I percieve Pam to be to you people. The jester, who dances and falls to get you to laugh and allows you to torture and insult it and smiles at the attention. I've done that, I will never again be the butt of jokes and what is mild but still, social cruelty. I do not compromise me to fit in. I just felt like I was being looked at to do that just to get friends and get out of the room.

I do not trust well ::insert Emily saga here::. It's one of the main reason I deal so well with my boys, I feel like guys don't play the social games women do. While probably not really true, it's how my heart feels.

Enough deep insight, it's not needed.

B)

I don't do the spur of the moment things like other people. They get they're belly-buttons pierced or tattoos or dye their hair. I spontaneously start a webcomic.

I should be getting some keenspace soon to show the immense stupidity and boredom that is a 1-6 desk shift. Yes, so it's really bad, but mildly amusing. You never know what will happen. I may become an author too... lol.
New goals are to write a page a day and to update a comic 2/3 times a week. I like a schedule. I like to be able to break it but I like to have something to do.

Now have to take notes for Marci!

Adieu ::blows kiss::

Your passion is Righteous Rose!

Ever notice that little thorn in your side? Wouldn't surprise us one bit with the way you feel about issues near and dear to your heart. But just because you're dedicated to your causes — from treating friends fairly to helping out those in need — doesn't mean you're reckless. In fact, far from it. That's part of your charm.
You're the type willing to help shape change, whether it be writing your Congressman or simply asking the local video store clerk why they don't shelve a better selection of new releases. If something nabs your attention — be it an unfair grade or a hot new shade of lipstick — you're probably not too shy to stand up and let your opinion be known. After all, nobody ever got anywhere by sitting on their hands and staying quiet.

In short? With your rose shade of passion, you've got "leader" written all over you. You know how to guide a team to victory with a dose of diplomacy thrown in for good measure. So keep it up with your righteous self!


The only thing I can say to this is "BOO-YAH!"

Music: Lena Horne - Stormy Weather
Thing: Insomnia
Color: That blue glow of the computer screen


This just in from TJ:
Thalia Blazesong: CAN'T SLEEP!
TJ: sucks
Thalia Blazesong: yeah
Thalia Blazesong: and jay abandoned me
TJ: who? why? and can I kick his ass?
Thalia Blazesong: no no
Thalia Blazesong: he's Tim's older brother and he had to go actually into work
TJ: oh, ok
TJ: can I beat up tim then? :-D
Thalia Blazesong: no
Thalia Blazesong: not while he's an RA
TJ: tim's an RA? those poor residents
TJ: i'll make a ninja mask then and kick his ass :-D
Thalia Blazesong: lol
Thalia Blazesong: i know nothing
TJ: hahaha, oh no, I'm leaving a card with your name on it :-P or saying "this is for beth" or something like that :-D

Bored as all hell and I can't sleep. Look it's online Quizes! Be amazed.


North Carolina


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Strong Bad
The original bad boy.


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Well, you like some nice music, but, loosen up once
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You crave so
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all weird in our own little way.


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You are Skye O'Malley from Skye O'Malley and All
The Sweet Tommorows

*Passionate * Bold * Raven Haired * Intelligent*


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Beast and Belle, clasic and stunning, you are the
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You love a night of dinner and dancing as long
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Music: Nyman - Convening the Coven (from the Practical Magic sountrack)
Thing: The FSC Sweatshirt (the official "I am not fully awake" uniform)
Color: Grey. The sky is grey, my eyes are grey, my sweatshirt is grey.

I'm in Philosophy class. I shouldn't be updating from here but I am. He's just reviewing things I learned in High School. Who'd have ever thought I'd be happy I took Mr. Reynolds class. He's talking about the 5th element which makes me think about girls with orange hair in tape dresses. Yeah, nothing is going to get me on topic today.

Something disturbing has been happening. The last two nights I've been up until 3 or 4 am talking to a Bonci. Not the Bonci I used to talk to that late at night but another Bonci, that Bonci's older brother. This bodes not well. Jay reminds me so much of boys I used to hang with at Camp. Yeah, that's it.... He's nothing like Tim and I like that, I like him, LOL, I only know his personality, and I think, between him, TJ, Andy B. and Andy F. my heart has healed. I read something the other day that really struck a cord. "A woman's love cannot survive without love back, and those that can are weak, clinging creatures that you want no part of." (The Prince's Bride - Alexander) Sure it was a badly plotted book but it did have a few gems. Anyway, I realize that happened. I am not a weak and clinging creature, and he cares for Meg now. What took so long I think is that I didn't feel needed or worthy. My boys didn't need me, they both have girlfriends, no one at school needed me or depended on me. Then I got a different set of boys, who respect me and help me. I love all my boys, but this set is helping me now. They don't talk over my head about "the game" or as we all know it is "the lifestyle", and they just let me talk about my problems, I can never thank them enough. Thank the gods I'm out of my slump.

Oscar Wilde said once that Experience is a nice way of saying mistakes. I've gained experience. Just as I told Erin, don't enter into one of those relationships unless you're sure, absolutely sure, you can never fall in love with them. Because then there is pain. One-sided love is painful. Truely love is that which is shared that is pure joy. I've had that, it was not lasting but I was blissfully happy. I believe in love at first sight- it's happened to me- but that doesn't mean it's lasting love. Someday, by the lord and lady, I'll find it. I can only hope.

Enough. I'm off to go take some online quizes. Check the buddy profile for them.

Adieu ::blows kiss::

Music: Harry Connick Jr.- Come By Me
Thing: Medication (must.... have.... migraine... meds.....)
Color: pitch black otherwise it hurts my eyes

I've been in bed all day with a headache. A migraine, because my meds ran out and my mom has yet to get me a refill. So I missed everything today. Including all meals. I went to one but I really hope I missed the good stuff because it sucked.

The one good thing I found today was on the Witchvox mainpage:

"America isn't easy. America is advanced citizenship. You've got to want it bad, because it's going to put up a fight....You want free speech? Let's see you acknowledge a man whose words make your blood boil who is standing center stage advocating at the top of his lungs that which you would spend a lifetime opposing at the top of yours."

-- From An American President by Aaron Sorkin.

I think we all need to seriously consider electing Aaron Sorkin, who also does the West Wing. Think of how he would run the country!


Adieu ::blows up::

Real conversation with Andy F:


Crusader: breaking up is sad
Crusader: I don't approve
Crusader: he seems so nice too
Crusader: nonono
Crusader: this simply can't happen
Crusader: you'll shatter my world
Thalia Blazesong: HUH?
Crusader: ooohh, wait
Crusader: I thought you said you were breaking up with your bf
Crusader: nevermind
Crusader: false alarm
Crusader: all is well
Thalia Blazesong: I dont' have one
Crusader: what???
Crusader: what??????
Crusader: YOU SHOULD!